GiH-Crafting

Okey. This might get some people mad for some reasons. Maybe because your opinion won't be the same as mine, but okey. 
I rarely post my opinion 'cause I think no one really care. But since I got asked about it, here it is

I'll explain why I don't take commissions since many people wanted to ask me stuff. 

You guys are not even ready to pay what I'm supposed to be paid for what I'm doing. ._. 
''It's just a drawing'' NOT. It's my precious time I spend for your shit. I spend my whole god damn life practicing to be able to live out of what I love most and now that you want me to work for you, you still find a way to be bitchy about it? So I can't ask you to be paid minimum salary for my everyday job? What the fuck man? Then why would you be paid minimum salary for selling burgers at mcdonald? ''Cause I'm working'' oh well guess what I'm doing when I draw for you? I'M WORKING. 
Since I like what I do, it's still not a reason for me to make it for free. I have a life I gotta take care of before taking care of your shitty requests. 
It sounds sooo selfish somehow, but  fuck it, I'm so tired of being treated like a working machine. 
I don't mind making fast sketches for people, but when it comes to huge illustrations like my recent drawing which I spend around 45 hours on ( excluding all the attempt I did before and threw away ) I will certainly NOT do it for free. ''Yeah but you like drawing? You should enjoy it right?'' I draw for myself, not for others. 

fuck off. 
thank you.
I'm done raging.

I am now able to make streaming on Twitch of me drawing in live! weeeh ! I thought it would be impossible Q-Q ... 
SO YEAH ! Now I'll be making live concept art, illustration and more and it'll be a pleasure for me to great you all and chat ! QVQ ~ and you can also see my pretty poop face  
Even if I know there's no one on DeviantArt anymore ;;;uu;;  

www.twitch.tv/giih5 HAVE FUUN >u< 

WOOT ! I just saw it when I posted my last drawing :'DD 
Damn I never thought I would get past this but that's nice! 
I know this page is quite dead but I'm glad there's still people hanging around .. sometimes.. maybe? I don't think so XD 

I'm almost done with school for all good and after I'll be able to start on my own and live of what I've truly love for all my entire life: Drawing. 
I'm writing here, I'm pretty sure nobody will really read it since it's just another random journal in your 5478th person you are watching on your account, but hey, this website exists for that. So why not? 

I feel like I've been through a lot. But maybe it is just the beginning ? I feel like when I'll be done with school, I'll be done with this hobby. It won't be my hobby anymore, it'll be my job. And what scares me the most, is that drawing becomes a burden for me. Something that I will loose the love of it. It happened to me once. That scary feeling that I any artist shouldn't feel. When you don't draw for yourself anymore, even if you force yourself at it. This year I feel like this is what I did. I drew for my own, and it felt damn so good. Even if it's not perfect, even if it's still not the result I want, I finally feel that I removed this heavy burden on my shoulders.

To any artist having this... HUUUGE artblock, and lost the control of it: Don't worry. It happens. Don't loose faint in yourself. It happened to me that I stop drawing (due to life stuff and internet friends problems) for a whoooole year and a half. And it took me this whole time to refresh myself and feel better about my skills. Somehow, this huge break make me better in my stuff. My level went up even if I didn't touch a single pen for all this time. Of course meanwhile I wasn't happy. I felt sad and empty. I did / said stuff to people that didn't deserve my mean words. Frustrated of not doing anything meaningful with my life..  'til this lovely guy came in my life to give life back to this poor plant I stopped watering for way too long.

So thank you to all of you, but mostly to my boyfriend who gave my back the reason why I love drawing so much, and also thank you to my dear far away internet friend who inspires me everyday. 

It's been a while I haven't posted anything revelant here. 
I was gone making costumes, going to work and that's.. pretty much it.. 
I went to Nadeshicon in Quebec few weeks ago, it was suuuuper great! I was happy to be able to wear Nona and Killua for the first time! ;W; 
Otherwise I was accepted for school next year in 3D Animation so certainly more drawing coming up! I decided to sell my Cintiq 24HD and with all the money I got, I bought a 13HD, a Inkling wacom device, and a brand new laptop! All my stuff are fresh and it feels damn good ^_^ 
I still have 2 or 3 conventions in the future for the rest of the year and planning my stuff. I don't really know what I'm going to do without counting Palutena and Meliodas for the summer ^^' we will see I guess :'D 

I you were at Nadeshicon, tell me, you had fun? c: 

AAHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE FOR THE 21K VIEWS! <3 <3 <3 This page is still growing hehehe I enjoy being here ;www;; 

I went to G-Anime last weekend and it was really fun! But probably not worth the 50$ :'D ... I think it was my last year and next time I'll try to go to Magfest instead. 
Pictures of Jibril are coming soon, I'm waiting for them and they are all simply AMAZING! It's totally not the last time that I'll wear the costume ^_^ It was just so fun being her haha :'D 
Best part of the whole con was when someone asked to have a picture of me and his bodypillow with Jibril on it.. I fucking died. GG m8 WP 
Soramaru was recognized! I'm suprised for that I always cosplay stuff that nobody know and some people came for pics ^^ 
Finally, the Kong group was a blast!! So much fun wearing this and will certainly wear it again with my friend and bf ~ ;w; 

Now for Katsucon, I decided to cancel the trip to simple money reason. It ain't my year for cons, I'll save up for something else like Anime North or Nadeshicon. ^^' 

Cosplay now ! Pretty much 4 costumes our of 5 that I planned for this year are done.... :'DDDD DARN I'm sad hahaa I don't know on what to work after Palutena ;^; Meliodas is probably the next one with other unfinished costumes that are waiting in my wardrobe for few months. I'm still thinking about what to work on this summer. Hades is reaaaallly tempting or Olivia dark angel from the card game of Rage of Bahamut.... or Amira .... :'DDDDD TOO MANY PROJECTS #THESTRUGGLEISREAL 

I'm done. 

HAVE A NICE DAY  
and thanks again for the 21K everyone ~ <3 <3 <3 <3 Maybe it is just a number for some of you, but for me it means a lot more than that ^^